I’ve been in a funk all week. I’m feeling really discouraged that I just can’t seem to be the person that I want to be. The lack of sunlight this time of year doesn’t help; it tends to make things look even bleaker than they really are when I do get down.
The one thing that has helped keep me from getting overwhelmed by this current bout of discouragement is the laughter that so often fills my days at the office. We manage to find ways to (gently) tease each other and things to laugh about multiple times a day. My gratitude for the chance to work in an environment like this knows no bounds.
I have been incredibly fortunate in where I have landed in the latest rendition of my work life. I work with a group of people that makes the work day a great deal of fun. My co-workers are people who I admire and consider as friends, and I still can’t get over my good fortune at having arrived where I am.
Having so often worked in situations where this was not the case, I find myself constantly watching the group dynamics and the individual interactions to try to discover the secret of what makes this group so different so I can do what I can to make sure the goodness lasts. I think there are several reasons why this group works so well—some that may be unique to this group, some that aren’t.
“As each day comes to us refreshed and anew, so does my gratitude renew itself daily. The breaking of the sun over the horizon is my grateful heart dawning upon a blessed world.” ~Terri Guillemets
I truly have so much in my life to be thankful for. The more I am paying attention to these things for which I am grateful, the more things I seem to find that merit gratitude. And the more I find, the more I think of gratitude throughout the day, which leads to noticing even more things for which to be grateful. It’s really a most lovely cycle.
A few years ago, I was going through a difficult time and my world seemed unusually challenging. On top of that, my hard drive failed, and I lost quite of bit of my writing that I had not backed up elsewhere: several years worth of poems, essays, novels-in-progress. I was devastated particularly by the loss of a couple of poems that had been particularly meaningful to me.
I wrote the poem below during this time as a reminder to myself that laughter is best way to brighten my world when all seems gloomy and as reminder that I can always write more poems. I had forgotten all about this one until I found it scribbled on the back of a sheet of paper in a drawer tonight, and it reminded me once again about the need to find more reasons to laugh.
I am finding that the more accepting I am of myself, the more readily I laugh. The more I allow myself to play with my creative side, the easier it is for laughter to bubble to the surface. The more I embrace life, the more joy wells up and overflows as laughter. I am slowly rediscovering laughter, and I love it!
“Let go of what you think life should be so you can experience the life you have.” ~Rhonda Britten
In yoga teacher training class last night, we talked about impatience and what causes impatience in each of us. As we talked, it became clear that impatience arises for each of us when we have expectations that life “should” be different in some way. Our impatience is a desire to be out of our current moment and in some other one somewhere else (usually a fantasy one).
For me, my biggest sources of impatience revolve around time—traffic jams that make the drive go more slowly than I think it “should,” meetings that take longer or are less productive than I think they “should” be, conversations that take longer than they “should” because the other person is slow to understand my point (which probably is more about my poor communication skills most of the time than a true slowness on their part) or because the other person is talking more than I think they “should.” In every case, I am wanting out of the present moment, which seems to be taking too long, so I can move on to something else in my future. That’s sort of the antithesis of my desire as a yogini to live in the present moment as much as possible.
“Wit is a weapon. Jokes are a masculine way of inflicting superiority. But humor is the pursuit of a gentle grin, usually in solitude.” ~Frank Muir
With the recent celebration of April Fools Day, humor has been much on my mind recently. I have to admit that this is probably the one holiday of the year that I actively dislike. It seems to me that it is just an excuse to spend our effort making fools of those around us so that we can laugh at their expense.
Now, to be fair, I know that many people would claim that I have no sense of humor. I will even admit that I tend to take life relatively seriously and that I often fail to see the humor in things that other people find funny.
It’s once again time for Synchronicity Friday where I review the moments of synchronicity that I encountered during the last week. This week’s list is relatively short since I have already mentioned two of my cases of synchronicity for this week in posts during the week. However, I do end this list with a rather humorous instance that brought me quite a chuckle.