I got my answer to my dilemma today. There are still some details to be worked out, but it appears that a solution has been found that will be a win for everyone involved.
Was it something that I did on my own or something that God did on my behalf? Yes. Both/and.
There was one person who just kept coming to mind as the perfect person to fill the spot that I would be vacating. I finally approached her this afternoon about the possibility, and she was thrilled with the opportunity and accepted on the spot! It turns out that this is exactly what she needed in this season, just as it was something I needed to move away from.
I had to take the initiative to go talk to her, but clearly the stage had been set behind the scenes in a way that I could not have orchestrated on my own.
I am, of course, incredibly relieved to have such a good solution. And my jaw remains pain-free. No popping. No tension. No strain.
And yet, I am finding an even bigger inspiration in this. I so often pose questions like the one I did yesterday: Is waiting OR working the right thing to do here?
Is it this OR that? Black OR white? Right OR wrong? Good OR bad?
And the answer so often comes back as “yes, both/and.” I want life to fall into tidy, easily defined categories, but it doesn’t. Over and over again, it doesn’t.
The answer keeps being in the middle, in the wholeness, in the balance, in the paradox.
Does that make life easier or harder? Yes, both/and.
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