“There is a divine restlessness in the human heart. Though our bodies maintain an outer stability and consistency, the heart is an eternal nomad. No circle of belonging can ever contain all the longings of the human heart.” ~John O’Donohue
I know this longing and this restlessness well. I have often described myself as a seeker because it seems like I have never found any religion, philosophy, or worldview that has been able to address this longing of my heart in a way that makes sense. I am always looking further to find answers.
I have always seen this as a flaw, perhaps because I grew up being taught that it was possible to fully know and believe all that really mattered if one just believed everything the Bible said. (Well, what it said according to that particular interpretation of it, but that part was never mentioned.)
But what if John O’Donohue is right? What if that restlessness is a divine thing? What if those longings and that restlessness is there to keep me asking questions, keep me growing, keep me open and stretching?
What if this divine restlessness is what makes faith possible? After all, faith can only exist in the presence of doubt, mystery, and questions. That which is known for certain is no longer within the realm of faith.
What if this divine restlessness, this longing for that which is higher and greater than I can conceive, is what keeps me on the path of seeking God?
What if this restless longing, used rightly, is my greatest gift and not my greatest weakness?
What if I were to make peace with this restlessness and embrace this longing? I just might find God there in the midst of my seeking.
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