Celebrating a growth spurt!

Over the last couple of years, I’ve gone through several periods of so much change in my self-identity that I feel like I don’t even recognize myself anymore. It’s as if there’s a stranger staring back at me in the mirror, and that’s a really disconcerting feeling.

Just recently I have been going through another one of these growth spurts, but this time around has been very different from what I’ve experienced before. Rather than feeling tossed about by the winds of constant change, this has felt more like an unfurling of new shoots of life coming forth from the core of who I am. Instead of being disconcerting and disorienting, this feels more like an ongoing celebration!

I keep noticing signs of growth in areas where I have been struggling for quite some time. Often these signs of growth take me completely by surprise when I suddenly notice that I am reacting calmly and positively to something that once would have completely shaken my world and sent me spiraling into emotional chaos. Occasionally I do catch myself starting to react and consciously choose to respond differently. Most of the time, though, I realize after the fact that I reacted differently without even being aware in the moment of doing anything differently.

Big shifts are happening where pieces of the puzzle that I’ve struggled with are just sliding into place in my self-understanding. Things are reframing themselves before my eyes in ways that make the jagged, confused edges suddenly dissolve into a cohesive whole.

I’m recovering parts of myself (like my creativity) that I had thought were long gone. I’m reclaiming parts of my bright shadow that I’ve denied for many years. I’m increasingly choosing to focus on my strengths instead of my weaknesses, even when I know that not everyone will appreciate my strengths.

It’s a really odd experience for me to find myself displaying so much growth and so much positive change in such a short period of time. There’s a part of me that’s even a little scared that this is just a temporary phase and that I’m just setting myself up for an even bigger fall once the next big challenge hits. I have a hard time believing that life can really be this good!

But for the most part, I am just embracing the growth and celebrating it. I’m trying to live in the moment and rejoice in its goodness with trust that all will be well in the end.

It may be Fall outside, but it feels like Spring inside with this sudden outpouring of new growth. I am one incredibly lucky woman, and life is so amazingly blessed in this moment.

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7 thoughts on “Celebrating a growth spurt!

    • Thanks so much! Yes, I do think that writing is helping. It’s hard to see that in the day-to-day, but it does really help clarify my thinking and understanding over time. Thanks so much for the good wishes!

  1. It is very heartening to hear of your ‘growth spurt’ of the soul during a season where we are witnessing a gradual slide into decay and death in the natural world around us. I am really happy for you. When it is unexpected it is all the sweeter. My own joy of a rediscovered creativity and outlet for expression has come through a period of greater pain and struggle than most years before it. Sometimes this fruit ripens and blossoms in the dark – as bulbs do. It is Spring for me too in this area of my life and I rejoice in its arrival. Blessings to you 🙂

    • Thank you so much, Joy! Like you, I have just come through a period of unusually difficult times prior to this blossoming of creativity. I love your analogy of bulbs! It fits my experience well. I’m delighted to hear that you are also experiencing Spring in your creative life, and I rejoice with you in that blossoming! I hope your period of heightened challenges has passed (or at least lessened) and that your Spring growth brings you many blessings and joys.

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  3. Party on! It’s called maturity and it should be celebrated. I think the self-doubt you expressed was the build-up to the celebration. Fortunately, you hung in there and kept moving forward into the celebration. I just posted a blog about self-doubt and how it can hold us back. In the beginning of our lives, when we learn to walk for example, we don’t allow doubt to discourage us. We keep moving forward until we learn. That it a very important lesson! Eventually we reach that ah-ha moment and it is well worth celebrating. You’re doing everything right and I applaud you!

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